Why it’s probably better not to come out as multiple

I think the best way to tell whether you’re being faced with manipulation, with a situation which is bad for you, is to see what happens when you prepare to leave.

If the other wants to understand, to help, to offer friendship, to make sure the relationship continues in a kind and gentle way, you’ve been in a good place. If you get threats, cold shoulders, pressure tactics, cutting off ties, defamation, snarky FB posts, and ignored (or attacked) when you try to re-engage, you’ve probably been in a bad situation.

I’m pretty sure I’ve been in a bad situation.

It’s in my old blueprint, of course, to put myself (or in this last case, get myself put) in bad situations. That’s one thing I want to change, in a whole list of things. Giving money to daddy figures is one thing my husband brought up which I hadn’t considered. It just occurred to me that putting myself in situations where blonde mommy figures attack and/or abandon me is another. That one has happened several times this year.

And so again I’m alone.

Being alone in itself is not a bad thing. Of course, I’m never truly alone, with my cloud of others with me. The cloud has lessened of late, or else they’re being very quiet. Integration? Or hiding? I never can tell.